Friday, March 13, 2009


Depression is a mental health disorder that affects the way you feel about yourself, the way you sleep and eat, and the way you think about things. A depressive disorder is not a passing mood. It is not a sign of personal weakness, and it cannot be willed or wished away.

A depressive disorder involves the body, thoughts and mood. People who are depressed cannot "snap out of it" and get better. Symptoms can last for months or years without treatment. Treatments such as antidepressant medications and psychotherapy can reduce and sometimes eliminate the symptoms of depression.

Types of Depression
Major depression is manifested by a combination of symptoms that interfere with the ability to work, sleep, study, eat, and enjoy once pleasurable activities. Some people have a single episode of depression, but many have episodes that recur.

Dysthymia is a less severe type of depression that lasts a long time but involves less severe symptoms. If you suffer from dysthymia you probalby lead a normal life, but you may not be functioning well or feeling good. People with dysthymia may also experience major depressive episodes at some time in their lives.

Bipolar Disorder (also called manic-depression) is another type of depressive disorder. Bipolar disorder is thought to be less common than other depressive disorders. If you have bipolar disorder you are troubled by cycling mood swings - usually severe highs (mania) and lows (depression). The mood swings are sometimes dramatic and rapid, but usually are more gradual. When in the depressed stage, a person can have any or all of the symptoms of a depressive disorder. When in the manic stage, the individual may be overactive, overtalkative, and have a great deal of energy. Mania affects thinking, judgment, and social behavior, sometimes in ways that cause serious problems and embarrassment. A person in a manic phase may feel elated, full of grand schemes that might range from unwise business decisions to romantic sprees. Mania, left untreated, may worsen to a psychotic state, where the person is out of touch with reality.

Persistent sad, anxious, or "empty" mood
Feelings of hopelessness, pessimism
Loss of interest or pleasure in hobbies and activities that were once enjoyed, including sex
Feelings of guilt, worthlessness, helplessness
Decreased energy, fatigue, being "slowed down"
Insomnia, early-morning awakening, or oversleeping
Difficulty concentrating, remembering, making decisions
Appetite and/or weight loss or overeating and weight gain
Restlessness, irritability
Thoughts of death or suicide; suicide attempts
Persistent physical symptoms that do not respond to treatment, such as headaches, digestive disorders, and chronic pain

Two-thirds of people suffering from depression do not seek necessary treatment
80% of all people with clinical depression who have received treatment significantly improve their lives
The economic cost of depression is estimated at $30.4 billion a year but the cost in human suffering cannot be estimated
Women experience depression about twice as often as men
By the year 2020, the World Health Organization (WHO) estimates that depression will be the number two cause of "lost years of healthy life" worldwide
According to the U.S. Centers for Disease Control and Prevention (CDC) suicide was the ninth leading cause of death in the United States in 1996
Major Depression is 1.5-3.0 times more common among first-degree biological relatives of those with the disorder than among the general population

have u ever feel that way?

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

do u trust a right one?

Since (almost) a year ago, I couldn't stop thinking...
"do I trust a right one?"

And, about 2 months ago, I got some enlightenment. Suddenly, I visit a nice "source" to open my mind.
At the beginning of Jan 2009, I met a great old-friend from Taiwan... We talked a lot, on the way back from Bandung to Jakarta, and I got another enlightenment...

I have to learn.. study... read more.. think more... pray more!!!

Well, I am a person who needs more than "just believe".

I like the statement: “Test all things; hold fast what is good”

So, here I am, going to find out and test and compare... let's see.. is it just a myth or a real truth :)

Saturday, December 06, 2008

i just want to sing...

Why do I do, just as you say
Why must I just, give you your way
Why do I sigh, why don't I try to forget

It must have been something lovers call fate
Kept me saying: "I have to wait"
I saw them all, just couldn't fall 'til we met

It had to be you, it had to be you
I wandered around, and finally found the somebody who
Could make me be true, could make me be blue
And even be glad, just to be sad thinking of you

Some others I've seen, might never be mean
Might never be cross, or try to be boss
But they wouldn't do
For nobody else, gave me a thrill with all your faults,
I love you still
It had to be you, wonderful you
It had to be you

Monday, November 24, 2008

adorable baby...

I'm extremely happy... I have a new adorable baby at home, in my bedroom...
It's my NEW PC... hiiip hiiipppp hurrraaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy :)

- Motherboard AMDA780 (onboard VGA-based on Radeon, which is quite cool.. will buy graph card later)
- Processor Athlon 64 X2 5200 (dual core @ 2.7GHz)
- Harddisk SATA 250G
- Memory 2 x 2G DDR2 PC6400
- 20' LCD wide

Nice huuuhhhh!!!!

It's indeed really cool... My last PC was Intel 1.7GHz, 1G PC2100, cheap VGA card, HD 40GB.
Actually my old one still works fine for office things & browsing (and watching movie), but it's too crappy for games...
Since (actually) I love games... I prefer a PC than a laptop.
I'm so proud of my new PC, hahahahaaaa...

Well, thanks to my friends who accompanied me to Indotech Computer Exhibition, and thanks to my lil' sister who accompanied me to Plaza Pinangsia... (well, she was succeed in persuading me buying TWO PS-controller **what do u call it?**, for me & her... playing game)

Thanks to USD-Rupiah currency which made me bankrupt & over budget!!!! It was Rp.12000 last week, then Rp. 13000 few days ago... then Rp. 13500 2 days ago... **damn!!** But, FYI, that's "computer-shop currency". Well, when the shop said that the currency was Rp. 13500, actually the currency was ONLY Rp. 13000. Whatever.. if they think I am stupid.. well, apparently, I am not.. I changed my rupiah to USD on a money changer close to my house, then payed the shop using dollar... HAHAHAAAA...

Anyway... I went late to the office this morning.. coz I installed a game this morning & played it for a while.. (meanwhile, also enjoying my nice graphic on my nice LCD, ahahaha...)
And, I can't wait for going home... installing some more stuffs on my PC... Install VMWare, Linux, P2P, then downloading a lot of things with my unlimited internet connection...
No more "staying late in the office".

What a wonderful life :)) :))

Saturday, November 08, 2008

enthusiastic ... ^^

aaaaaaaaaaawwwwwwwwww !!! I'm sooo enthusiastic nowwwww...

OK... jadiiii... segeraaaa... bakal ngenalin salah satu temen baik ke seseorang... (istilahnya siy, langkah awal untuk nge comblangin, huehehehehe...)

Temen ku yg ini org nya baiiiik deh... walopun selalu menganalisa sesuatu, dia ini tetep asik :) reliable & adorable dah... daripada dia jomblo terus... mendingan, gw kenalin ke seseorg lain, hehehe...

let's see.. smoga sukseeees... ahahaha, ga sabar :P

Sunday, October 26, 2008


Peter Pan - Menghapus Jejakmu

terus melangkah melupakanmu

lelah hati perhatikan sikapmu

jalan pikiranmu buatku ragu

tak mungkin ini tetap bertahan

perlahan mimpi terasa mengganggu

kucoba untuk terus menjauh

perlahan hatiku terbelenggu

kucoba untuk lanjutkan hidup


engkau bukanlah segalaku

bukan tempat tuk hentikan langkahku

usai sudah semua berlalu

biar hujan menghapus jejakmu

Saturday, July 19, 2008


ow gosh.. what am i doing here?
One of my friend asked me, have I ever had a diary or blog, to keep some memories? Frankly, I said, hell.. no... (what is it for? )
Well, I'm a talk active person, prefer to talk than to write.. can u imagine, how much info can u tell in a minute, compared to write? fiuuuh...

but.. hhmmm... 9PM, in my bedroom, waiting for my vanilla latte, not in a mood to read things about Access Point.. (actually, i was not in the mood since this morning), so I decide to enter this page, and post some lines as an introduction about my self.

Did I just make a blog? haha, let's see.. How long I can stand for this :)

**yeah, try to write in English.. maybe this can improve my crappy-English, hihihiiii**